Sunday, November 25, 2012

As 2012 Marches to a close ...

This is the year of speculation about doomsday ... the question is if it will come true ... and if it does which dates? 20.12.2012 or 12.12.2012 or 31.12.2012 or ...? While whether this is going to happen or not, one thing does matter: think about our lives for a moment. We are all rushing from one event to another, be it a job working for that increment, promotion, year end bonus ... looking for another job or business opportunity ... looking for love ... worrying about the kids ... there is just so much stress and pressure in this world that even our so-called fun moments are either mere coincidence that bumped into our pressured schedules or we squeezed a small moment out of the weeks that unfold ...

As I sit here this morning, on my balcony, on my own enforced weekend of doing nothing related to work ... and wondering what to type on this blog ... or diary ... that's what is actually going through my mind ... and I have to relook on this year and the remaining months and ask myself ... what do I really want to do if the world is indeed coming to an end?

Of course we have to plan for the future as if lives will continue and world doesn't end ... but it just makes me want to find more of those moments to doing what I enjoy most ... and not just work and crumble under the pressure until life is just one blur moment

So while my mind is still running around in circles about all the things that can go wrong on my future projects and all the outstanding work to be done ... I have to learn, like it or not, to just let it be. Work is never done. If the owners of my company, their families and those in senior positions can let things slide and dump it all on me hoping I can fix it ... then I should just do the best I can in my allotted time and find time of my own to live a life to call my own ... they are not sacrificing personal time with their families and friends going for holidays and functions and religious activities while I have been doing so for the past 16 months ... well it's my turn now. I have been on over-stressed since Oct 2011 when doctor diagnosed and this year is worse ...

Yup ... I will take time out to find true love ... to take some risk in finding true love ... to chase my passion of painting and writing ... and find time for my family and having a family of my own as well

To all of you out there, who is reading this, I wish you the very best in your life and may the Creator bless us all and guide us all in our paths!

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